I love how you use the word "freshening" here; reminding us (well, me) that our strength and our cores are always in there, just awaiting a drink of fresh water. It can certainly take awhile to get to that source of water, though(!).
Thank you for inviting us to join you on your journey. I really like what you're doing with structure these days, and in this case the three schemes really do underscore the different approaches you take in life. Nice work!
And thank you for sharing the realties of living with mental illness: we need voices like yours leading us to the light. Beautiful. Bless.